Good morning !
So recently a fan/custom movie client asked me a series of questions that provoked answers for her, yes, mind you a female and she asked what was my favorite scene to film.
My Answer was well, it’s the one I am in the moment. When I am filming I am totally and completely immersed in that moment. It is extremely hard for me to get there to that place where I am totally out of my head. I think non-stop 24/7 and even wake up half the time exhausted from dreaming while asleep such busy dreams. I overthink everything and work very hard not to burn out and to stay calm. I work out, I meditate (which I am getting better at) sometimes even mediate with one I listen to while I sleep.
There is one thing however that gets me out of a funk and totally in the moment. Nothing else exists but what I am doing. It is filming porn. I am totally and fully there and present and nothing else matters and I can finally be free. That is why I don’t care that there is a camera or anyone else watching. Doing a gang bang or blow bang is even better. When I am finished I feel such a rush and so relived it is super relaxing. You would think having sex with several guys would be a lot of work. The way that well trained in sinc guys work, however is amazing. The guys at the GangBangCreampie are call “cocksmen”. It is like doing something with well orchestrated navy seals all working in unison. Same with the guys at Blow Bang Girls, they just step into place and it all goes down like in order as a piece of the universe.
I have to say I am rarely nervous before film and I always know that I am going to be okay and be better afterwards. There are occasions where something is awkward or uncomfortable but still all in all getting to my total focus and being present is such a gift.
I wish I could find more ways to do so, I get there as well by wakeboarding. It is all consuming. But truly I have nothing else that brings me as much to the present moment….
Well there is one more thing but it is saved for another Blog. It is about a true “Soul Connection” or “Twin Flame” and life played out in 5D. Real life is 3D – Film in reality watching it is 2D. Just perspective ….
Xoxo
Payton
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